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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Last Friday something major happened at Ash's place. I didn't about that until later. Ash lagi tak tau apa-apa siak. Nobody wants him to know in case dia ngamok.

As of last Friday my mother outlaw is not on talking terms with her firstborn son and his wife. Citer dia macam gini :

On Thurday night, Kak Nana nyer anak, Dila dengan Ain, came home at around midnight. Dah lah balik lambat, beri salam kuat-kuat. You know how it is at night. Soft sounds can be so much louder at nights. Kalau dah "ASSALAMUALAIKUM!!!", kan kuat tu. So mother outlaw told the kids to

. She said Ash not yet sleeping and she didn't want him to know the kids are back home. Then mak Ash suruh lah budak-budak tu makan kalau lapar but when one of them switched on the tv, she told them to off it. It was already so late. kalau abg Mamat ke kak Nana ada umah tak pe. Ash won't make a fuss. I don't know lah eh tu budak-budak dah buat citer apa dengan mak dorang. Early Friday morning when Ash and me woke up (Ash had to go to work that day), we were puzzled with the sms yang kak Nana send to Ash. She asked him whether was it true Ash didn't like her kids to be at his place for the past two days? Ash was like blur tapi dia pun tak ingat apa-apa.

Anyway pas Ash gi keje, aku pun apa lagi lah...konker pc, gi on WINAMP online radio kuat-kuat. LAgu rock ahh beb! So aku tak dengar lah kat luar sana ada drama.

Mak Ash tanya abg Mamat malam nyer tu gi minum ke pasal she noticed his eyes were bloodshot. He said yeah. And when she went to the kitchen, he followed and start to bebel., asking her what did she tell the kids. Of course lah mak Ash defended herself. She felt she didn't say anything wrong. It's not as if dia gi halau budak-budak tu dari umah. Obviously abg Mamat tak hepi ( and he's only the step father and the kids ARE not even Ash's blood relations). Dia kata lah dia laki bini gadoh pasal ni and kakak ugut nak gi abort her baby. What the fuck...?? Ni lah dia cakap orang yang tak beriman. Abang Mamat kalau dah start bebel...macam pompan...au-au terus non-stop.

I think eh both of them, selain dari menyusahkan laki aku, menyusahkan mother outlaw aku jugak. I wish them out the house lah as quickly as possible. Dah dok umah sendiri baru tau seksa. Aku kesiankan mak Ash. She has alaways been the most patient and the most understanding person I had ever known. I am lucky to have her as my mother outlaw. Even though aku ni kasar orangnya, I was not brought up to be rude to my elders and I don't understand people who do.

When you are the daughter-in-law of the family, you are supposed to be some sort of mediator between your husband and your mother-in-law. Kadang-kadang when Ash tekan mak dia lebih-lebih, aku marah dia. I told him she is already stressed out, we don't have to give her any more pressure.

I have a phobia for family feuds. Is there any scientific name for that kind of fear? My heart started to beat slightly faster when I was told the story. I don't want to be involved in anymore family crisis. I had already gone through that. The only time when I was fearless was when I faced my bastard of an x husband. That was quite a happening event

He kept calling the police to come over our place sampai I think polis pun dah kenal umah kita tu.

Aku macam nak bilang Ash but I can't. Takut high blood pressure dia naik plak.

i'm watching you...
Wednesday, April 14, 2004

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