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Saturday, July 15, 2006

The problem with you is you are so pre occupied with your family especially your mother that you make me my presence here feels so unnecessary. Maybe my mother is right. Having your mother around, you'll never change, you'll never have time for me, with me. Maybe my idea to move back to my parents' place has never been so tempting as it is n ow.

I mean what does my being here mean to you really? Except for sexual gratification, your mother can give you everything else. She cooks for you, does your laundry, irons your clothes, cleans up after you. She practically satisfies most of your needs. You don't need me. You never need. You might need my money (everyone does) but you don't need me now that I'm unemployed and broke. I don't want to put you in a dilemma but you were ever given a choice, you would always choose your mother over me. Always. Remember that trick question about who you are gonna save first when the ship is sinking? I rest my case.

I put my family aside for you. You could never put your family aside for me. I will never be at the top of your priority list and it hurts so much realising after denying it for so long. If it wasn't for the kids I would have moved back to my parents' place. I trust nobody to take good care of them. Not you who grossed out about their clearing up their crap. Not Camelia who would forget to feed them. Definitely not your mother who would lock them up in their cage and put the cage, with them in it, somewhere in the staircase area so far away from the house. People would either take them in or torture them, thinking they were being abandoned. I should have just married an orphan. Life would be easier then for everybody.

i'm watching you...
Saturday, July 15, 2006

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