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Friday, November 18, 2005

I wanted so much to confide in you like I used to do but at the very last minute I decided not to. You already got so much on your plate to worry about my own plate. Besides we are not the same persons. Like you said, you have changed. And most probably I change too. And so I confide in myself since you've been gone.

Am I being unreasonable? Am I being difficult? Am I making a fuss over something so small? Or am I justified to feel the way I do?

Am I wrong to uphold his rep? A wife should always jaga airmuka suami...I heard from somewhere lah. I'm not yet his wife but I'm doing exactly that. It's not ok for his mother to go ask money from somebody I dislike. It's telling that person Ash is not capable of providing for his mother. If I hear a whiff of somebody even starting to say that, mampos orang tu. Most probably duit tu is for buying groceries for Camelia's birthday celebration this Sunday. Poor thing! Nobody remember her besdey today except me. She called me up during lunchtime and me and my 2 buddies sang a birthday song for her. I told Ash if it was indeed true his mother buying groceries with the money given by his older brother, I won't take a bite of the food...no matter how hungry I am. I don't want to be indebted to that beladi fakker for anything.

I know I'm giving Ash unnecessary pressure. Besides the people I dislike so intensely is closely related to him. Maybe I should just shut up and let sleeping dogs lie lay down wherever they want. The thing is dorang memang anjing...and anjing tu najis di segi agama kan? Kwang kwang kwang...berbual macam ustazah bertauliah syial aku. If I don't voice out my misery I'll burst. When I let out my anger Ash tertekan plak. So how?

Everytime I lay my eyes on the both of them I remember what they said about me...and my blood go upstairs. I vow to myself...for as long as I don't get to have it all out with them, selagi tu lah aku simpan dendam sepanjang zaman....sampai bila pun aku sanggup tunggu. When they came over tadi, I didn't even bother to go out front there to welcome them. Why should I welcome them into my house? Kalau kat Woodlands I didn't have much right to say anything much. But here in Yishun, I got lots of things to say. This is my beladi house and you are not invited in.

MUKA TAK TAU MALU...DULU BUKAN MAIN MAIN CAKAP AKU MACAM-MACAM. CAKAP AKU POMPAN SUNDAL YANG HAMBAKAN MAK MERTUA. AKU HAMBAKAN DIA EH? KALAU BETUL AKU HAMBAKAN DIA PUN BUKAN AKU HAMBAKAN DIA PERCUMA LAH SIAL. KAU YANG HAMBAKAN DIA KAU TAK MAU CAKAP. ASEK DOK UMAH BESARKAN BUAH...BESARKAN TETEK TAK MAU CAKAP. NI LAKI AKU YANG SAKIT TU TANGGONG KORANG LEMBU 2 EKOR. TU PUN TAK SADAR DIRI...NAK BUTOH-BUTOHKAN LAKI AKU. KAU NAK KATA AKU POMPAN SUNDAL? AHHH UMAH POMPAN SUNDAL NI JUGAK YANG KAU DATANG DOK LEPAK...NYEKIK...CAMPAKKAN ANAK KAU SUME KAT SINI KASI TU TUA JAGA...INGAT LAH SIAL...AKU TAK HALALKAN APA YANG KAU MAKAN KAT UMAH NI...AKU TAK HALALKAN DUIT LAKI AKU YANG KAU PINJAM SAMPAI BURN TU. POMPAN SUNDAL KAU LABEL AKU? MEMANG AKU NGAKU AKU DOK SERUMAH DGN ASH....TIDO SEKATIL...MEMANG AKU NGAKU WE MASTURBATE EACH OTHER BUT THAT IS JUST IT. PUKI AKU MASIH BELUM KENA TEBOK LAH SIAL. BUKAN MACAM KAU...BARU KENAL LAKI KAU BAPER KALI..DAH MANTAT. JANGAN TAK NGAKU PULAK PUKIMAK. TUHAN NAMPAK APA YANG KORANG BUAT. SESUNDAL2 AKU PUN PUKI TETAP MENTEN VIRGIN FROM DICK ABUSE. JANGAN INGAT AKU DIAM AKU SUKA KORANG KAT SINI. AKU PANDANG TU TUA LAH SEBAB TU AKU KASI KORANG PIJAK LANTAI UMAH AKU. JANGAN INGAT LONGKANG TU AIR CETEK TAKDE ULAR SAWA. ULAR TU ADA...DIA RELEK TEPI. NANTI DIA TIMBUL..NGAP KAU..BARU PADAN MUKA KORANG LAKI BINI.

I am so beladi pissed off at them. I can wait. Revenge served cold is just as delicious as when it is served hot. I am not a patient person but when revenge is concerned, I can wait for as long as it takes to satisfy my anger.

i'm watching you...
Friday, November 18, 2005

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