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Monday, June 28, 2004

Aunty tu hari kan kakak dengar pak long cakap dengan nenek...dia kata auntie tak tau simpan makanan

Coming from a 10-year-old kid who I know doesn't lie. Aku tak tau simpan makanan?? I can't say I'm angry ke apa ke lah..but isn't it weird? Aku yang beli grocery pe for Ash, his mother and Camelia. Nama dorang tak de dalam list aku. Why should I? Baper ribu sial kau bagi kat Ash yang aku nak gi simpan lauk untuk kau? And lauk apa yang aku tak simpankan? It's so obviously korang laki bini kalau lauk tak sedap mana nak makan. Lauk ketam, daging, udang...uikkkk laju korang bedal. Kalau letak ikan bilis, ikan kering, beinh-benih, lauk weak-weak, korang mana nak sentuh. Vavi haram!! Dok umah tak tau nak keje tak tau nak buat apa-apa...asek dok perap dalam bilik besarkan tetek besarkan buah. Pi mampos lah sama korang.

Aku cakap dengan Camelia and Ash..It's ok. I'm cool. As long as aku tak dengar it's fine with me. Anyway aku belum officially jadi Ash's wife. Kalau dah...jeng jeng jeng

Angin taufan

Couple of losers I have to endure.

i'm watching you...
Monday, June 28, 2004

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Sunday, June 27, 2004

I was looking through friendster and myspace. Aizzzz aku nyer friends' list tak lah sebanyak yang aku inginkan. But that's my fault. I am too lazy to go peep orang lain nyer profiles. I just can't be bothered. I was waiting for people to message me though. Most of the profiles belong to a much younger generation. Makes me feel so old and mouldy siak

I am just not good with people. I am too shy even though I think I'm quite friendly with people I'm comfortable with. Part camni aku ikut perangai ayah aku. Dia lagi lebih bisu dari berbual. Even with me his own child, he doesn't talk much and I don't have anything to say to him. We were never close. We lost contact for like 15-16 years since my parents divorced. The last time I saw him was the day I got married. I needed him to be my wali. Even then he didn't stay long. He said he had to go home. Dammit!! Aku kan anak dia..and yet he behaved as if I am a stranger.

Citer dah gi ke laut plak

Anybody looking for someone to mentel-mentel with...sila tag aku.

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Sunday, June 27, 2004

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Monday, June 21, 2004

Update update update!!!

Just had a wonderful orgasm

and it's not even the weekend yet. Tapi orang dah nak kasi amik je lah. Bak kata pepatah Melayu : Musuh jangan di cari, rezeki yang ditolak.

Early this morning I dreamt about my brother. In the dream I saw him in his prime mover vehicle driving off after dropping the girl. I can't remember much except that it was some place big...macam padang bola gitu. I must have been missing him that much sampai teringat-ingat dalam mimpi eh?

Tadi OT. Yeahhhh!!!

Maklum dah lama tak buat OT badan sengal seyyy. Hope from today onwards hari-hari ada OT. Aku kaut sume.

i'm watching you...
Monday, June 21, 2004

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Another bloody fishy day. Tiring body-aching day. Problem at work. Too many complaints from customer. Revamped the whole packing system like it used to be. Dah berlambak-lambak keje. But if that brings OT, gerek seyyy!!!

Got into a slight tiff with Ash. Nothing serious. I didn't talk. I didn't cry. I let him nag. I was angry because he welcomed me home not with a kiss but with naggings...just like my mother. About what you asked we quarrelled? About him not wanting to wait for me at the shops. Besarkan buah peler je kat dalam bilik

Makes me think about the way it used to be. Oh, I know he loves me but it's not the same anymore. We don't do stuff together anymore. We don't watch movies at the cinema anymore and we always tried to go at least once a month. Asek pokai je sume nak kena put on hold

He doesn't hold me in his sleep. Sometimes he did and when he does, pure heaven. Didn't kiss me good mornings. It's little things like these yang I miss most about us. Maybe betul lah kata memberz aku sume. Familiarity does breed contempt.

He did say that time bila dia nak jual rumah nanti I have to go back to my mom's place for about two weeks. Tak tau lah bila dia nak jual but he decided on that already. If I have 2 go back there, better reactivate the internet connection sebelum aku go insane

Nak gi rest jap...NOT!!! Aku online jap dulu.

i'm watching you...
Tuesday, June 15, 2004

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Monday, June 14, 2004

Something to do when korang tak de apa nak buat.

What's ur type?

Hey, try it out and see how attractive you can
be to the opposite sex.

1. Which place do u want to have a travel most?
A.Beijing .............................go to q.2
B.Tokyo................................go to q.3
C.Paris................................go to q.4

2. Have you ever cried when u see a touching
movie?
A.Yes..................................go to q.4
B.No...................................go to q.3

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend still has not
come after an hour of your date with him/her,
what will you do?
A.wait for another 30 mins............go to q.4
B.leave immediately...................go to q.5
C.wait until he/she comes.............go to q.6

4.Do u like to go to see a movie alone?
A.Ye..................................go to q.5
B.No..................................go to q.6

5. When he/she asks for a kiss in your first
date, what will you do?
A.Refuse.............................go to q.6
B.light kiss on his/her forehand.....go to q.7
C.Agree and kiss him/her.............go to q.8

6.Are you a humorous person?
A.I think I am.......................go to q.7
B.I think I am not...................go to q.8

7.Do you think you are a capable leader?
A.Yes..............................go to q.9
B.No...............................go to q.10

8.Which gender will you choose to be born if you
are given a chance?
A.Male............................go to q.9
B.Female..........................go to q.10
C.I don't mind...................Type D (go
straight to results below)

9. Have you ever got more than one boyfriends or
girlfriends at a time
A.Yes......................................Type B
(go straight to results below)
B.No.....................................Type A
(go straight to results below)

10.Do you think you are intelligent?
A.Yes..................................Type B
(go straight to results below)
B.No...................................Type C
(go straight to results below)

RESULTS
Type A : Congratulations! You can extremely
attract the opposite sex!
You possess a charming beauty in the eyes of
them. You not only have a pretty figure,
but also have a humorous and gentle personality.
You should be a literate person
and know how to get along with people and can
allocate your time well,
thus you are always popular among the opposite
sex.

Type B : Quite good! You can easily attract the
opposite sex, but you will
not easily into the loving trap. Your humor
makes them want to get
along with you. He/She will be happy being with
you!

Type C : Not bad! You cannot attract the
opposite sex very well, but
you still have something good which make them
like to get along with you.
You should be an honest person and have a unique
view in seeing things.
You are quite friendly in the eyes of your
friends.

Type D : Oh! You do not attract the opposite
sex.
You do not have much knowledge, and not much
intrinsic humane values.
You are too rude to the opposite sex. Thus you
are not very popular among them.

Aku type C...

i'm watching you...
Monday, June 14, 2004

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Beladi server baldipul. Aku nak survey template baru kat blogskins dia buat hal pulak hegeh-hegeh tak upload cepat. Pukimon tul! Aku try lagi by this weekend nak tukar layout.

i'm watching you...
Monday, June 14, 2004

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Sunday, June 13, 2004

I was thinking about quitting my current job and find 2 12-hour jobs. Right now the company I'm working for tak de OT. Cannot earn money siak. Nak cari keje part time...apa keje siak? I don't have patience with people. No salesgirl job for me. Interested nak jadi cashier tapi most places sume jauh-jauh.

Thinking about quitting tapi aku sayang nak tinggalkan my job. I'm good at it, I have great friends and my colleagues are wonderful and I love them.

In a month or two. I'll talk it over dengan Ash lagi.

i'm watching you...
Sunday, June 13, 2004

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Your Journal Is Rated PG-13

Rather than spill all, you paint in broad strokes

(In case your journal is read by your folks!)

Not that don't have any naughty secrets to show

You're just smart enough to keep it on the downlow

What's Your Journal Rated?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

You Are Not a Gold Digger

You go out of your way to take care of everything in your life.

Including money - which you've got plenty of, thank you very much.

And you have no intentions of being a trophy girlfriend for some bald guy.

Just make sure that hottie you met isn't scheming to be your boy toy!

As a successful woman like you knows, gold digging goes both ways these days.

Are You A Gold Digger? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Thank God...but I'm not that successful

You Will Die Overdosing on Poppers!

Yup, even if you're not quite sure what poppers are right now...

Your kinky ways will lead you to them - and you'll be hooked.

Don't be so sad, a freaky mofo like yourself has to go sooner or later

Be glad it's not from a one eyed French midget. Don't pretend you don't know!

How Will You Die Having Sex?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

i'm watching you...
Sunday, June 13, 2004

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Saturday, June 12, 2004

Gambar masa Ash was so damn good-looking. He looked so cool huh? No? Well he is...to me...

I looked better in this pic...because I was drunk. That was in Sentosa last year I think tapi dah lupa apa event. Beach party. I always look good when I'm drunk. My tummy...adehhhh..macam logo Firestone siak

i'm watching you...
Saturday, June 12, 2004

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Thursday, June 10, 2004

Ash is worrying. I am too. Worrying is not good for him in the condition that he is right now. I wish I could take away all the misery from our lives. We had nothing but troubles. They get worse everyday.

He asked me how long are parents going to depend on me? I told him I got no choice do I? I am the only one they got right now. I am just not good with solving problems. All I get is headaches and they won't go away so easily.

So damn bleak. Will the sun ever shine on us? I am so sick of all these storms. It doesn't get better when my own mother advised me to move on. Move on to who? To where? Who else can I run to? Where else can I be?

I just wish those 2 get out of here. Not working, not doing anything except sleep, sleep and sleep. How long can they sleep? Don't they feel bored? Don't they have better things to do? Maybe Ash is right. They are taking some stuff. I don't know what but I think they are doing drugs. GET OUT LAH!!! JUST GO!!!

i'm watching you...
Thursday, June 10, 2004

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Wednesday, June 09, 2004

While I was pasting the pics her, I had this very weird conversation with a guy online. Aku kenal lah jantan tu. So long ago when I was active kat dalam Malay room but I can't remember his face. I don't think I was introduced to him anyway. The coversation we had was weirdo because he kept talking about him imagining himself doing the horizontal bop with me

He caught me unaware because aku tak expect dia berbual dengan aku like that. If I didn't know him I would have cussed him to hell and back but as he was somebody I used to know I laughed.

It got to the point when I was literally blushing at the things he said that I blurted out that I have Ash. He was surprised lah of course. I have this impression that he thought I'm easy bait pasal aku selalu ke ulu ke hilir with some guy or another. I put his brain straight for him by telling him that no matter what he heard or thought about me, I am not the kind of person who fucks around. No matter baper jantan aku go and parade around, I still maintain my pepek. Sorry for having to destroy his illusions about me but at least he's honest. I actually thanked him. I don't think I deserve to be worship on his pedestal of horniness

See what kind of creeps you find online. Be careful you kids out there. Try not to meet people from the net alone. Make it a big gathering. You never really know what kind of person you are meeting. Mana lah tau dalam net alim kat luar binatang. Hati-hati ahhh...

i'm watching you...
Wednesday, June 09, 2004

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last but not least important..camelia the monkey

i'm watching you...
Wednesday, June 09, 2004

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my beloved...my one and only...the best ass among all...Ash

i'm watching you...
Wednesday, June 09, 2004

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my dearest mother in law

i'm watching you...
Wednesday, June 09, 2004

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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Muka aku

The icon doesn't even begin to describe my feelings. I feel like I would like the ground to open up and swallow me terus. Kill me somebody

i'm watching you...
Tuesday, June 08, 2004

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muka obit aku...my god..buruk sial muekekeke...tengok perut aku mcm perut pompan keling in the movies..aiseyyy malu nyer aku...pas aku post ni sure kena kutuk

i'm watching you...
Tuesday, June 08, 2004

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A friend called tadi masa aku dalam train. It was a pleasant surprise. She didn't call or sms me for a while. She said she thought about me. I was weird but I was just thinking about her too. Pasal tadi pagi I saw this minah muka dia sekali pandang macam muka member aku tu..only member aku tu cerah sikit. She told me she read my blog everyday. I am ashamed to admit that I read hers once in 2 weeks. Tak baik eh aku but I got too much in my mind lah. I go read when I have time k? Maybe we should meet up ke apa. But I don't want to intrude. I know you got your own thing to do.

Apa nak buat to make yourself have a much easier bowel movement eh? Ada tips tak? Sila rekemen a few.

i'm watching you...
Tuesday, June 08, 2004

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Monday, June 07, 2004

People kept asking me "bila nak update blog ko ahh??" Aiyahhh kalau otak aku mati camne nak blog siak? Tak de modal maaaa.

Tadi pegi library jap...borrow 4 books at record time. I think I spent about 10 minutes in there. Met Ash and asked him to buy me a KFC chocolate- covered ice cream for 50 cents

. Went to the market a while beli sayur, eggs, cili. oren jus. Yang aku pegi bilang korang shopping list aku buat pe

Bukan boleh claim pun eh

Considering nak buat gederin tapi malas lah nak gi picit orang suruh datang. Macam tak kuasa gitu. Tak pe lah aku geder kat Woodlands sorang-sorang pun ok pe

Questions I Hate to Answer

1. ASL please. ASL being age, sex and location. Usually asked in pm while chatting on Yahoo Messenger. Dah tentu-tentu my profile stated my personal info. Apa lagi mau tanya sial? Soalan bongok dari orang bengap.

2. Bila kau nak kawin. Another "Duh!" question. I quit thinking about that for sometime. Not the right time, not the right situation. Aku dah sakin bosan nak jawap soalan ni, I pretended to be single again. No worries. I told Ash about this and he's ok with it.

3. Nak sex/main. Lagi satu soalan sial. Kalau lah konek dia boleh sampai kat depan pintu bilik aku tak pe jugak. Konek baru baper inci nak ajak aku mantat pulak. Deyyyy thambi!!! Kalau ajak aku gi mantat online, puki aku tak luak pun lah deyyyy. Biar pun air dah sampai tahap kepala jangan lah perangai macam butoh miskin pulak. Meluat and menyampah aku.

And please lah eh if you are ever online in the same room with me, don't judge me when you don't know me personally. Aku mengaku aku sial dalam chatroom tapi that doesn't mean puki aku ni aku suka-suka derma kat orang tau. Who are you to lecture me? Aku sendiri tak kenal kau lah sial. Setakat carut online terselak ke pe buah keduak kau?

Lagi satu puak yang aku dah lama tak serempak...pompan-pompan yang step alim and feminine dalam room tu. Pukimon ahhh. Geli lah jijik lah. So what? It's just crap talk. Don't mean anything and not worth remembering. Apa..kalau aku mencarut puki korang basah ke pe? Gi cocok lah dengan batang mop ke batang penyapu ke. Nak lagi canggih pakai batang vacuum. Boleh sedut semua sekali sampai kering-kontang. Biar sial kita orang nampak. Yang jenis cover-cover ni...belakang orang...lagi terok sial perangai.

And why the fuck am I so pissed off? Ntah. Tetiba je

And you...you know who you are. Are you avoiding me after I told you the truth? It's ok. Aku tak rugi. Sometimes lies can make you appear so much better in others' eyes. But I can never lie for so long. It's not in my nature. So tell me...would it be better if I had kept my mouth shut and not tell you anything at all? Yo go figure it out.

i'm watching you...
Monday, June 07, 2004

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Saturday, June 05, 2004

One of those days - another boring day. Maybe I'll go to the library...stay there for few hours away from everybody that I know.

Ash's mother is away in Melaka for the last 3 days. She said somebody was ill there and her sister is organising a yearly kenduri kat kampung but aku rasa sebetulnya dia tensen kat sini dengan perangai anak-anak dia. Sebab tu dia lari balik kampung jap. Her son pun ni degil nak mampos. Pak kal lah kan aku masih sayang. If not, I would definitely walk out of here. Oh yeah I am pissed at him. So pissed that for now I don't want to look him in the face. Makes me sick. I made him just as sick I think.

Fuck lah!

i'm watching you...
Saturday, June 05, 2004

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