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Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Lagu ni aku letak sini...for obvious reasons...

Jangan Bilang Siapa-siapa by Ratu

Pertama jumpa dirinya
Aku sudah ada yang punya
Namun ku tergetar 'tuk mengenalnya
Ku beri senyumku kepadanya
Dan kau tahu maksud hatiku
Kau bertanya siapa namaku
Ku jawab walaupun tersipu
Dan kita berjanji 'tuk jumpa lagi
Tanpa ada teman
Tanpa ada yang tahu kita suka

Setiap kubercinta dengan pacar rahasiaku
Aku ingin kau tak tahu
bahwa aku sudah ada yang punya
Setiap kubercinta dengan pacar rahasiaku
Aku suka, kamu suka
Sudah jangan bilang siapa-siapa

Aku bagai putri yang s'lalu
Menebar pesona ke setiap insan pria
Pasti ada satu, dua lelaki yang 'kan suka
Oh, manusia tak pernah berhenti
Mencari yang didambakannya
Tuhan mohon petunjukmu

Aku bukanlah wanita yang merindukan
Sang raja yang akan memeluk ratunya
Ku hanya manusia
Yang menginginkan satu pria saja
Yang terbaik untuk hidupku

i'm watching you...
Wednesday, April 28, 2004

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Somebody is making me sick

Anyway something to look to this Friday night. Going to Europa...again. Have yet to tell Ash. I hope he won't be making a big fuss. I'm not paying for anything anyway. Being a woman can be such a wonderful feeling

This time round I think I'll bring in more girls. Anyone interested? Bukak botol kat Europa is a little cheaper than Jamz. A bottle of Chivas Regal costs $108...and admitted 3 persons. Boleh lah kan? So kalau ada orang minat nak go can send me a sms(???) via this number W0M1WAW. Gila siak aku gi pomot kat dalam blog...but then who the fak cares nak gi picit number aku? Orang yang ada number aku dalam phonebook dia pun tak kosa nak call aku apa lagi strangers.

Ciao baby!

i'm watching you...
Wednesday, April 28, 2004

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Sunday, April 25, 2004

Had fun last night. Drank too fast too soon sampai tak sempat nak keluarkan peluh. Nak jalan pun senget macam ketam

ada hati nak joget pulak.

Tak jadi gi Jamz. New law sekarang. Nak masuk nak kena line up macam some sort of exclusive club padahal yang gi kebanyakannya budak-budak taik. Nak masuk pun ada quota. Sekali masuk 8-10 org. So last minute memberz ajak gi Europa kat east coast. The band gerek seyyy...lagu power gedegak...the kind I like. Dengar citer jamz nak tutup. Kalau betul tukar port kat Europa je. Cuma nak gi sana leceh. Nak kena naik cab. Nak naik bas dgn MRT tak tau nak turun mana.

Kalau aku tak gi tagak banyak semalam I would have fun dancing the night away. Maybe next time.

i'm watching you...
Sunday, April 25, 2004

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Saturday, April 17, 2004

Sexy Naughty Bitchy by Tata Young

[Chorus:]
I pick all my skirts to be a little sexy
Just like all my thoughts they always get a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls I always play a bit bitchy
Can't change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me

I'm the kind of girl that girl's don't like
I'm the kind that boys fanstasize
I'm the kind that your momma and daddy were afraid you'd turn out to be like
I may seem approachable but that's only to the boys who don't have the
Right apprach or ride that makes a girl like me wanna hop in and roll
People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality
I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

[Repeat Chorus]

My mouth never takes a holiday
I always shock with the things I say
I was always the kid in school who turned up to each class
'bout an hour late and when it comes to the guys I'd lay
I'd always pick the ones who won't figure out that I was clearly rebel to the idea of monogramy
People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality
I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

[Repeat Chorus]

Sexy... Naughty... Bitchy... Me

People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality
I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

[Repeat Chorus]
I like all my shorts to be a little too shorty
Unlike all my guys I like them tall with money
I love all of my nights to end a little bit nasty
Can't change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me

I pick my skirts to be sexy
Just like my thoughts a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls.. bithcy
Can't change, I am
Sexy naughty bitchy me

Yeah I have been naughty these few days...always sexy...sometimes bitchy. In the mood for some making out sessions

but Ash is at work. Tough!!!

i'm watching you...
Saturday, April 17, 2004

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Last Friday something major happened at Ash's place. I didn't about that until later. Ash lagi tak tau apa-apa siak. Nobody wants him to know in case dia ngamok.

As of last Friday my mother outlaw is not on talking terms with her firstborn son and his wife. Citer dia macam gini :

On Thurday night, Kak Nana nyer anak, Dila dengan Ain, came home at around midnight. Dah lah balik lambat, beri salam kuat-kuat. You know how it is at night. Soft sounds can be so much louder at nights. Kalau dah "ASSALAMUALAIKUM!!!", kan kuat tu. So mother outlaw told the kids to

. She said Ash not yet sleeping and she didn't want him to know the kids are back home. Then mak Ash suruh lah budak-budak tu makan kalau lapar but when one of them switched on the tv, she told them to off it. It was already so late. kalau abg Mamat ke kak Nana ada umah tak pe. Ash won't make a fuss. I don't know lah eh tu budak-budak dah buat citer apa dengan mak dorang. Early Friday morning when Ash and me woke up (Ash had to go to work that day), we were puzzled with the sms yang kak Nana send to Ash. She asked him whether was it true Ash didn't like her kids to be at his place for the past two days? Ash was like blur tapi dia pun tak ingat apa-apa.

Anyway pas Ash gi keje, aku pun apa lagi lah...konker pc, gi on WINAMP online radio kuat-kuat. LAgu rock ahh beb! So aku tak dengar lah kat luar sana ada drama.

Mak Ash tanya abg Mamat malam nyer tu gi minum ke pasal she noticed his eyes were bloodshot. He said yeah. And when she went to the kitchen, he followed and start to bebel., asking her what did she tell the kids. Of course lah mak Ash defended herself. She felt she didn't say anything wrong. It's not as if dia gi halau budak-budak tu dari umah. Obviously abg Mamat tak hepi ( and he's only the step father and the kids ARE not even Ash's blood relations). Dia kata lah dia laki bini gadoh pasal ni and kakak ugut nak gi abort her baby. What the fuck...?? Ni lah dia cakap orang yang tak beriman. Abang Mamat kalau dah start bebel...macam pompan...au-au terus non-stop.

I think eh both of them, selain dari menyusahkan laki aku, menyusahkan mother outlaw aku jugak. I wish them out the house lah as quickly as possible. Dah dok umah sendiri baru tau seksa. Aku kesiankan mak Ash. She has alaways been the most patient and the most understanding person I had ever known. I am lucky to have her as my mother outlaw. Even though aku ni kasar orangnya, I was not brought up to be rude to my elders and I don't understand people who do.

When you are the daughter-in-law of the family, you are supposed to be some sort of mediator between your husband and your mother-in-law. Kadang-kadang when Ash tekan mak dia lebih-lebih, aku marah dia. I told him she is already stressed out, we don't have to give her any more pressure.

I have a phobia for family feuds. Is there any scientific name for that kind of fear? My heart started to beat slightly faster when I was told the story. I don't want to be involved in anymore family crisis. I had already gone through that. The only time when I was fearless was when I faced my bastard of an x husband. That was quite a happening event

He kept calling the police to come over our place sampai I think polis pun dah kenal umah kita tu.

Aku macam nak bilang Ash but I can't. Takut high blood pressure dia naik plak.

i'm watching you...
Wednesday, April 14, 2004

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Monday, April 12, 2004

Dah datang aku punya malas berhari-hari aku tak blog. Nothing besh nak citer. Long weekend boring time. Nak merayap memberz sume busy dgn hal sendiri. So aku dok terperok kat umah macam jerok mangga. I did keep in touch with a long lost friend though

> Not really lost lah but we keep going on and off in this friendship. I hope this time round we stuck together.

i'm watching you...
Monday, April 12, 2004

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Monday, April 05, 2004

Malas nak blog for the past few days though I had some very good ideas. Aku pun heran selalu nyer otak aku ligat berpikir while aku tengah mandi. Macam-macam aku pikir. Pasal cinta pasal famili pasal memberz pasal duit.

There are 4 kinds of moneylenders I come across throughout my entire lifetime. Maybe there are more. You go figure it out.

(a) The first kind is the type you can always borrow money from anytime anyway. Kau nak pinjam baper banyak pun dorang no hal. They got money to burn lah baby. The catch is...you will be too embarrassed to ask them even when you are so desperate for the money.

(b) The second kind is the ones you can borrow money from but beware. They will pester you to pay even when they know you really can't afford to. Macam mana lah orang yang pinjam duit tu tak avoid these kind of moneylenders. Tensen beb!!!

(c)The next one is one of my favourite people in the world. You can borrow from them without hesitation, who won't mind if you can't pay back immediately, who don't pressure you to pay, who frequently insist that you pay when you have the cash. Kalau aku dapat 10 memberz macam gini, aku tak rasa aku banyak pikiran

(d) Yang aku tak peberet ni jenis lah. You think you can borrow from them but when you ask them, they either ask too many questions (" kau nak buat apa? bila kau nak bayar? kau tak bleh mintak dengan orang lain ke? kau dah try tanya?") or they don't say anything at all. Nabey!! You will be in limbo. You keep wondering whether orang ni nak tolong ke tak ni. Dah sesak ni hegeh-hegeh pulak dia nak kasi jawapan.

Aku punya orang pulak pantang nenek moyang aku orang mintak pinjam duit pagi-pagi buta. I am a little bit more generous with friends but dengan mak dengan adik-beradik aku bising dulu baru aku kasi

. Which kind of Jew are you huh

i'm watching you...
Monday, April 05, 2004

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