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Friday, February 20, 2004

Found yourself in a sticky situation that you can't get out of? I just did when Ash dengan mak dia bertekak pasal abang dia. I kept silent when they were arguing. Aku nak kata apa? I'm still not yet married to Ash. Even if I am, I feel uncomfortable involving myself in their family feud.

Maybe I am biased pasal Ash tu tunang aku but really I think his mother is defending the elder son when it's so obvious he is never gonna change even after marriage. Mak dia gi balik asek suruh Ash sabar and I understand why Ash got all worked up. He has been patient for months and yet still no difference. He thought once married, abang dia ubah perangai malas dia...and work hard for his own family, get own house, have own kids...Tu sume dalam mimpi je lah boleh terjadi. In real life...no.

Whatever Ash said tadi dengan mak dia...it's all masuk akal. He really can't pay up the house monthly payment. $700...mana nak gi cari? Dah lah keje office hour. Like I said before there is no allowances. OT pun kadang-kadang. Mana nak bayar bil umah...groceries...sakit sial pala pikir.

I tried to be the peacemaker. I don't like him quarreling with the mother. Aku macam pobia lah kalau orang gadoh-gadoh since anak mak aku buat hal. Mak dia pun stubborn like oven. Forever kata sabar sabar sabar. Sampai bila? Dorang sume tau Ash nyer condition. Takkan dia nak gi support his brother AND wife pulak. Sebab tu aku kata...keje blum betul pehal nak gi pikir-pikir pasal kawin? Diri sendiri jalan senget ada hati nak kasi makan anak orang?

Aku really tak setuju dengan cara mak Ash mintak duit. Mintak memang mesti tapi...kelakar kan mintak duit dengan menantu. Sapa tanggung sapa ni?
Bini tanggung laki ke pe? It's like I'm seeing my own mother being defensive about the son in spite of what he had done. Come on lah mothers...I know they are your sons but can't you see that dorang tak abis-abis nyusahkan orang?

Told Ash he can't talk to his brother garang-garang. Silap haribulan laki aku kena trajang siak. Kalau dia sehat macam dulu tak pe...aku jadi his cheerleader

Something else on my mind. A blogger's journal was evaded by some maderfakker yang tak puas hati dengan dia. I was just wondering...if you hate that person so...why even bother singgah kat website dia eh? Telling stories...put them down. It doesn't matter if the stories are true or false. What is the motive? Nak malukan orang tu? So what if they had a past? Everybody did something stupid when they were younger. I did too...Aku shoplifted singgam when I was 9-10. Pakat dengan anak mak aku. That doesn't mean I was going to be thief bila aku dah besar pe. Doesn't matter if you were an ex-convict ke...budak DRC ke...perompak ke...whatever lah...It does matter whether you learn from that experience...whether you want to be a new person...turn over a new leaf...be a model citizen.

Ikut macam aku...kalau dah tak suka somebody, aku tak berbual..aku tak mau tengok muka dia. If I had to...absolutely necessary baru lah aku nak bukak mulut. Kalau tak...dia boleh pi mampos. Doesn't matter lah sapa orang yang aku tak berkenan tu. Kawan ke...adik ke...sedara ke...Buat pe nak bual manyak? Menyakitkan hati kan?? So whoever yang meluat dengan aku...dipersilakan... JANGAN SINGGAH SINI

i'm watching you...
Friday, February 20, 2004

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